Goodbye

To everything there is a season
A time to be born and a time to die
-Ecclesiastes 3:1-

Have you ever thought how short life is?
I wonder, what would it be when the time comes... Not "after" the time comes, coz there's lots of controversy around it. but "when" the time comes...

Will I have been happy with what I do? Will I have traveled around the world?
Will I have given my best in life? Will I have been an inspiration to someone?
Will I have loved other as much? Will I have smiled enough to enough people?
Will I have said to people around me how important they are?
How many people will actually come to my funeral and cry?

This shortness of life, made me realized how I should cherish every moment. How I should give thanks to every little things I took for granted.

Thank you for reminding this, and... goodbye..... friend..


Dedicated to Tan

UPDATESS!!

*dodging all the plates, glasses, forks, spoons, knives flying about

yay, i'm back! guess my last post is like.. last year? haha
i guess this blog is getting moldy :P

anywayyy

i need to keep myself focused this acad year! lots of things happened, happening, and going to happen (i guess)
both for my study part of life, my ECA part of life, and my social life (if i still have some) with all new commitments.

it's week 5 of school nowww!! and i still don't have the mood of studying. partially because of the indonesian FOC i guess. my best FOC so far (being a maincomm). althought the memories didn't come from the FOC-days itself, but mostly from the preparation step. love all the maincomms, and all my subcomms.
it's time to move on from FOC....

so here comes the school part! 25 AUs this semester!! the most i've taken ever since i came to NTU.. amazing uh? and 1 subject is really killing me... homework for every week: summarizing the textbook! yayyy!! and the design project is really unappealing also... also, my friend asked me to join BPC... i hope i can survive after this sem..

i chose the companies for my IA next sem. exxonmobil was my first choice, followed by philips, sunningdale tech, polyone, and ciba vision. hope i'll get my first choice tho... hufff... let's see when they'll call me for interview...

anddddd... ECA part... this is the one going to kill me soon i guess. so.. i've taken a great step.. and this will be the hardest committee i've ever been.. and i still don't know what to do with NTU choir, whether i should quit. indochoir is active now, since ICN is near. and another thing which i'll try to settle..


SOO... considering so many things happening this semester (and next semester)...

pray for me!!!!!! hope i'll survive...

I Will Be Here

Tomorrow morning if you wake
up and the sun does not appear
I will be here
If in the dark, we lose sight of love
Hold my hand, and have no fear
'Cause I will be here

I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
I will be here

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I will be here
Just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I will be here

I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here

I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I will be here
Oh, I will be here

(Steven Curtis Chapman - I will be here)


I got this song a long time ago, never really listened to it. 2 days ago, when I had nothing to do, just browse along my 10GB-worth of music folder.
this song's tune is not the thing that drives me crazy (although it's part of it), but it's the lyrics.
what a love song... wish i had a person that thinks that way towards me.
I attached it in this blog, so let the music buffers, and listen to the tune.

A Chance

Teach us to make us of the time we have.
Teach us to be patient even as we wait.
Teach us to embrace our every joy and pain.
To sleep peacefully, and to rise up strong.

(Janet Sullivan Whitaker - In Every Age)

I personally loved this song ever since the first time I heard it. Partly because of the tune, but most is from the lyrics.

Isn't it just what every people need? Patience, perseverance, acceptance, and a good night sleep.

It's interesting how God never give us what we asked directly.
We asked for patience, He never gives it.
We asked for perseverance, He never gives it.
We asked for acceptance, He never gives it.

He never gives us courage, but chance to be courageous at times we are afraid.
He never gives us forgiving heart, but chance to forgive those who wronged us.
He never gives us patience, but chance to be patient to wait.
He never gives us perseverance, but chance to persevere at troubles.
He never gives us acceptance, but gives us chance to accept things we have.
He never gives us friends, but gives us a chance to be a friend.


Maybe sometimes we wondered, why He didn't give us the thing we needed, instead, he gives us the raw material. I think, it's to make us abundance in things that we asked Him.
Imagine, if we asked for one fish, and if He gives us one fish, we'll end up with just one fish.
But if He gives us a fishing rod, we possibly ends up with thousands of fish.

Now that He already gives us the chance, can we take it? And after we took it, can we keep it?

Maybe the Lord bless you and keep you.


A friend,

TonZzZ

Accept me!

this particular title is kinda confusing, rite? it's not that i'm confessing love and asking someone to accept it or something..

it's just, a general expression of acceptance...


last night i went to celebrate sept's birthday, and he said this very interesting line. "terimalah aku apa adanya, bukan ada apanya"

hmm.. how to translate this to english.. "accept me whatever I am, not whatever I have"

the time i heard this line, it was just like... whoah..
are we able to accept people whatever they are? can we just forget about all the external things? wealth, race, religion, status.... it's all just an additional stuff to the purity of heart that a person have.

when every people is able to accept whatever other people are, not of whatever they have, surely this world will be such a better place, don't you think?

A Child's Mind

People said, the older you are, the wiser you are, and the more opened your eyes would be..

Is it true? Try reading this story I heard from my HRM (Human Resource Management) teacher..


A kindergarten teacher asked a question to her class. She said: "What's the biggest thing in this world?"

A boy said: "My daddy! It's the biggest thing in the world! He can carry me, hug me, put me around his arm!"




Another boy said: "Silly boy. It's an elephant! It's much bigger than your father!"




Then, a girl answered: "The biggest thing in the world is a mountain! It can contain hundreds or thousands of elephants!"




All of a sudden, an usually quiet girl raised her arm and said: "It's my eyes! No matter how big an elephant is, or a mountain is, I can see it all from my eyes! My eyes have to be the biggest thing in the world!"


Have you ever thought of such an answer? Maybe our eyes are not the biggest thing in the world. But, have you ever thought, how great our eyes are, to be able to see all the bigger things in the world? (well, of course physics applies here.. but.. ignore it for a sec please?)

But then, are our eyes the biggest thing in the world? Maybe if we think about it, the answer is no. I think it's our brain, that is bigger. A better memory than any computer in the world. Much faster processing speed. And of course, a better casing (ourselves).


Now, a question is asked to you all. Is it true that the older you are, the more your eyes are opened?

The Beggar's Party!

It's a Party! It's Beggar's! It's The Beggar's Party!

ok.. i know it's lame.. but nevermind..
the catholic community in my campus (CSA a.k.a. Catholic Students Apostolate) is holding a musical! The theme? come on... if u haven't got it yet, u need to take a gun and shoot urself.. The Beggar's Party!
It's free.. It's fun.. It's on 25th August!
and hell.. i'm gonna perform there.. it's gonna be crazy.. i need to practice really hard to meet with the expectations.. and it ain't low...
script memorizing in progress.. movement memorizing and generating in progress.. songs to memorize.. sheeeshh..
really hope this event will turn up to be a success.. so many passion are being poured in it!

wad's it about, u ask? well, can't really tell, or it won't be fun, rite?
wad character I am? well... i'll tell u AFTER the musical.. haha.. it's gonna be stupid.. *hint hint*
for those staying at singapore!!! DO COME!! it's free anyway... u can meet me also.. hahaha (as if it's THAT important)